(Others shown are unidentified and appear only as part of the public setting.)
This photo was taken during my time in the Army; sitting in an NCO club in Germany, drinking with a group of men. From the outside, it looks like a carefree moment - a normal social scene that hid what was really going on inside me. At the time, drinking Jack Daniels and Coke and smoking Newport cigarettes had become part of my everyday life. Those habits felt normal then, but they couldn’t help me with what was broken inside.
Getting a man was never my problem - and I’m not bragging, just stating a fact. Four men asked me to marry them. I accepted one proposal in an effort to change myself. Even with a candlelight wedding planned, it became clear that pretending could not bring peace, and it was called off.
But I did not desire men the way I desired women. I share this about the men only to clarify that availability was never the issue and that my struggle did not begin by choice.
What God has taught me is that while we are all born in sin and shaped by iniquity in different ways, we are not required to live according to it. Sin may be inherited, but it does not have to be inhabited.
That was the part God had to change - and the part I wanted Him to change - because I knew He was not glorified in it. No matter how often I went to church, how many good works I did for others, or how tolerant society became, I knew - deep down - this was not the life God had designed for me. He did not create me to live as a lesbian.
What no one in that room could see was that God was already at work in me. Not loudly. Not forcefully. But patiently and intentionally. I couldn’t reason my way out of my desires.
I couldn’t will them away.
I couldn’t drink them away.
And I certainly couldn’t transform my own heart.
God didn’t just modify my behavior.
He changed my desires.
He reordered my heart.
He did what only He can do so that He could use my life for His glory.
This is not a story about my strength or self-discipline. It is a testimony of God’s grace and His power to bring real change in places we cannot fix ourselves.
If God can do that in me, He can do it in anyone.
Peace & Blessings,
Elder Yetta N.A.
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Don’t quit in ’26.
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